I'm Lost.

i'm scared,i'm lost with no direction.
no one will save me even just for once.
i can't find the brightness in my life.
i can't find any stars in my long..long night.
i just can find fear,terrified,scared,darkness.. these thing completely exist in my life now.

if i can ask God for one question,i will ask "Why do you keep me live? Why"
i mean yeah,you know .. today was so hard,running and cried in school toilet, crying just for almost one hour? do i must do that thing everyday????
I can't do this anymore,God..
I want quit:(